Heart To Heart

It's been awhile since I wrote something here. And its been awhile since I share something that I don't usually spoke about for ages. Sometimes, we tend to forget what inner most feelings that cooped inside oneself. It's been awhile since anyone share about their emotional self to me.

I always thought I am the only middle child facing life dilemma, but rather most middle child is experiencing the same crisis so-to-speak. It seems to be in every family there would be one. But then again, it makes life more interesting, is it not?

After dad being hospitalized, came back home, naturally a rest is required before everything else goes back to normal. A tough decision to make, to send mom to the nursing home, for 2 months. for dad to recover may not be an easy decision but we as siblings need to ensure dad recovers fully.

We told mom, it'll be 2 months only before coming back home, to find a solution of hiring maid or we took turns to care for mom. Mom could not wait, having no patients, thinking that we have abandoned her, turn rebellious. Decided to injure herself, we are helpless to find out that she had again fall. Not once but 4 times! We rushed to the nursing home and she was in bruises and send her to the General Hospital for check-up. A further evaluation is required after explaining to doctors on her behavior. She was referred to Psychiatric Ward. Unsure whether the Home is giving proper care, we can't help but console our mom.

Days passed, weeks passed, our mom is not improving from her rebellious behavior. And on 7th May 2018, she was admitted to Psychiatric Ward for further evaluation. It breaks my heart as a daughter to see her in the ward like that, although it was only for evaluation. She refuses to see us, in her mind we have abandon her to die, but in fact we are trying to help her. She misunderstood our intentions. I couldn't help but cry at the thought of it all the time.

I pray hard to God and Master Lau Soon Hing (Lao Tze) to help mom to be at peace and be acceptance that we are in fact trying to help her.

​Mom we love you, please open your heart and recover soon. We all love you!